Serious question: Is this a real person?
God I can’t remember the last time I wrote a post. I wonder who is even on tumblr anymore (besides Winnie-hey Win!). I was/am bored at work today, looking back at my old posts on here….damn, I think I used to be a better writer, or more original maybe. Or just better at faking it than I am here and now. It’s funny that some of the goals I set for myself are the same, for someone so out going I never seem to want to go out. I can’t even fathom that I’m coming up on my senior year. In some ways things seem just the same as they were freshman year but in even more ways everything has changed. Lately I’ve been having this weird feeling, like I have to re-do the things I’ve done, that I’m still stuck in the things that I’ve happily moved on from. It’s bizarre, sometimes I have to remind myself what was in the past. I feel like my little cousin who wakes up every morning and asks if he already went to Hershey and the wedding, as if he did it but somehow forgot it all happened. That’s another thing that is boggling my mind, my sister is getting married in just about 3 weeks. Married! I’m beyond exciting for the wedding but I keep forgetting what it represents. She’s not just having a party, she’s getting a husband and a marriage and a forever. Sometimes just thinking about it gets me extremely emotional, I can’t imagine what it’ll be like actually experiencing it all day-of. Apparently this summer is about becoming aware that I’m not yet where I want to be, but I think I might enjoy being stuck in no-man’s land for a little while. Even in my weird, half-reclusey state, I’m having a pretty damn good time.
this just makes my heart ache